Lesson 6 ~ “I am upset because I see something that is not there”

“I am upset because I see something that is not there.” Search your mind for a moment and find what is bothering you most. What are you feeling?  Name the form of upset you are experiencing: Sadness:  depression, despair, disappointment, hopelessness Anxiety:  fear, worry, concern, nervous, panic, dread Anger: irritation, frustration, annoyance, rage Shame/Embarrassment Guilt…

Lesson 5 ~ “I am never upset for the reason I think”

I had to let this lesson for today sit with me awhile. And remind myself of the research I did into the psychology of abuse.  The abuser’s overwhelming need to control comes from a place of fear.  The root of anger is fear.  It may look like fearlessness, but it isn’t.  It’s usually a warning…

Lessons 3 ~ “I do not understand anything I see”

This lesson from A Course In Miracles was tougher for me because I try to understand everything, even when I don’t understand it.  Especially when I don’t understand it!  It’s my inquisitive nature. But this lesson is necessary to tear down the walls of what we think we know. I know nothing. We view everything…

A Course In Miracles ~ Lessons 1 & 2

Several days ago, I read a book called A Course In Miracles I found it via my usual route … a winding path on a journey to enlightenment through philosphy, theology and science.  I don’t believe they are mutually exclusive, yet struggled to find my place in the world of religion. As part of that…

Standing On Thin Ice

This piece of flash fiction was written for Chuck Wendig’s Flash Fiction Challege: Pop Culture Mash-Up Edition I chose – by random number generator – #15 The Stand by Stephen King and #20 The Bible.  What, pray tell, do these two books have in common other than their epic size?  A significant amount of their…

Solitude

I crave solitude. Which is quite the about-face for a confirmed card-carrying Extrovert.  In the final quarter of 2017, my world spiralled out of control, careening from side to side like a car spinning on ice, bouncing from one concrete life barrier to the next.  I had to stop and get off the rollercoaster to…

The Moonlit Path to God

“… the form of the moon can only be known through one’s own eyes. How can it be known through others?” ~ Aldous Huxley – The Perennial Philosophy Why does no one seek God?  Have we completely lost the our ability to see?  And why doesn’t religion show the way?  Because “they” don’t see the…

Grateful Day

I am grateful that I woke up. I give thanks to God and ask for His forgiveness, guidance and grace. I am grateful that I slept well in my beautiful and cozy silver grey striped sheets and duvet. I am grateful that I heard my son come in late last night. He is safe and…

Pray For Me

My current favourite song is Pray For Me by The Weekend & Kendrick Lamar – Black Panther movie. Love the beat.  And it suits me just fine these days. I’m always ready for a war again Go down that road again It’s all the same I’m always ready to take a life again You know I’ll…

Heart of Ash

Today is Valentine’s Day, and it is also Ash Wednesday which marks the beginning of Lent.  Since my family didn’t follow Lent, I am uneducated in most biblical protocol and did not know that the observance of the forty days had begun.  Last night, blissfully unaware that I was serving up a Fat Tuesday dinner,…

It’s Been a Hell of a Ride

Say go through the darkest of days Heaven’s a heartbreak away Never let you go, never let me down Oh it’s been a hell of a ride Driving the edge of a knife Never let you go, never let me down … Let Me Love You – DJ Snake & Justin Bieber It’s been one Hell…

Mind the Gap

In search of peace of mind … I’ve tried everything.  Meditation.  Mindfulness.  Mindless drugs and mind-numbing alcohol.  Yoga.  Sex.  Music. Mindfulness and meditation are two sides of the same coin … they share similarities, yet they have different approaches. Meditation predates prayer in religion, originating as sounds and chants or mantras. Mindfulness is the act…