My car started acting up on the weekend. It’s losing contact with the key fob … but it’s not the key fob because it doesn’t recognize both keys. Yet here I am – right at the start of 4th quarter – with a bazillion meetings booked and I had to get my son to the…
Category: Psychology
I Wish You Enough
I don’t know why I needed a good cry today. Or – perhaps – it is better to say I don’t know which reason was the catalyst that opened the floodgates. I moved into a Sales Executive role and had to bring home a big win for 3Q and I delivered, despite everyone telling me…
Lesson 6 ~ “I am upset because I see something that is not there”
“I am upset because I see something that is not there.” Search your mind for a moment and find what is bothering you most. What are you feeling? Name the form of upset you are experiencing: Sadness: depression, despair, disappointment, hopelessness Anxiety: fear, worry, concern, nervous, panic, dread Anger: irritation, frustration, annoyance, rage Shame/Embarrassment Guilt…
Lesson 5 ~ “I am never upset for the reason I think”
I had to let this lesson for today sit with me awhile. And remind myself of the research I did into the psychology of abuse. The abuser’s overwhelming need to control comes from a place of fear. The root of anger is fear. It may look like fearlessness, but it isn’t. It’s usually a warning…
Lesson 4 ~ “My thoughts do not mean anything”
Whoa. Wait. What? But my thoughts talk to me all day and night? They are prisoners in my head. Each human has this complete vortex of thoughts, feelings and emotions swirling non-stop silently inside them. What do you mean they mean nothing? My real thoughts are being blocked out by my good and bad thoughts? …
Lessons 3 ~ “I do not understand anything I see”
This lesson from A Course In Miracles was tougher for me because I try to understand everything, even when I don’t understand it. Especially when I don’t understand it! It’s my inquisitive nature. But this lesson is necessary to tear down the walls of what we think we know. I know nothing. We view everything…
A Course In Miracles ~ Lessons 1 & 2
Several days ago, I read a book called A Course In Miracles I found it via my usual route … a winding path on a journey to enlightenment through philosphy, theology and science. I don’t believe they are mutually exclusive, yet struggled to find my place in the world of religion. As part of that…
Scanxiety
I was back at the Cancer Centre last week for my six month post-treatment checkup with my oncologist. Just over a year ago in April 2017, I had never set foot in the (old name) Oshawa Hospital, or what I have affectionately renamed as the Lakeridge Health Oshawa Spa. The Ajax-Pickering Hospital was closer to…
My Piñata Life
Creative Writing Exercise B) Imagine a character has just learned that he/she has just won the lottery. IMPORTANT: The goal is to describe not the character but the room (or general area) the character is inhabiting. DO NOT tell the reader that the character has just won the lottery. * * * * * It happened like The Big Bang. First,…
All Dogs Deserve a Crown
It was a video of beagles freshly rescued from a laboratory which started my path to rescuing dogs. While my heart clenched so hard that tears poured out of my eyes, it also swelled with happiness that there were people who would save them. Someone from the lab tipped off the rescue that the beagles…
Grateful Day
I am grateful that I woke up. I give thanks to God and ask for His forgiveness, guidance and grace. I am grateful that I slept well in my beautiful and cozy silver grey striped sheets and duvet. I am grateful that I heard my son come in late last night. He is safe and…
Conscious Stream
Can I get out of bed? What time is it? It’s too early (roll over). I have to get up. Out of bedroom. Dogs need to pee. Coffee. My eyes are itchy. Where is the whipped cream? Weird as fuck dream. I have a headache. Medication? Weather? Slept too long? Caffeine withdrawal? Stress? Good morning…
Fox Diaries 