My Hero

Flash Fiction Challenge: Explore the Complications of Heroism from Chuck Wendig. “You are a hero!” my best friend whispered as she hugged me tightly. “Why?” I asked, “Because I didn’t die?” Still standing after a brutal year-long Round One in the ring with cancer and its insidious treatment, I need to squeeze my eyes shut…

Personal Pain

Am I allowed to feel a moment of personal pain?  I feel guilty expressing my pain when it pales in comparison to other’s pain. The pain of Humbolt.  The pain of Toronto. The pain on the other sides of those stories.  The pain of the truck driver.  What kind of pain did Alek Minassian feel…

Cancer Wars

Imagine the opening scene of a dramatic television show … the beige double doors to the hospital’s Chemotherapy Unit swing open … slo-mo filming crunches time to jarring seconds, allowing you to take in the chaotic landscape before you.  Row upon row of sick people sit in blue vinyl recliners while hooked up to IV…

Security

Are you familiar with Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs? These are the basic needs of humans, teetering on a pyramid. If you don’t have the foundation … these fundamental Physiological needs of air, food, water, shelter, clothing and sleep, you can’t fully realize the next level of needs.  They are required for human survival and without…

Day One

I have this joke with my boss … whenever he mentions my birthday I scream “Yes!  I am 26 times 2!  And doing it right the second time!” We laugh.  And I smirk because if there is a women who resisted adulting all the time, it was me.  However, cancer makes you grow up pretty…

I made it to 2018

My biggest fear with cancer was to not live long enough to see another snowfall.  But I made it to Winter 2018.  And wiped snow off my car.  Three times in one day!  I wasn’t sure I would make it this far when I had this conversation with myself: Stage IV I died in 2017. …

It’s Been a Hell of a Ride

Say go through the darkest of days Heaven’s a heartbreak away Never let you go, never let me down Oh it’s been a hell of a ride Driving the edge of a knife Never let you go, never let me down … Let Me Love You – DJ Snake & Justin Bieber It’s been one Hell…

Haves & Have Nots

     “I might have cancer.” It was nine months ago on March 6th when my GP called me to say I had an appointment with a surgeon ASAP.  They didn’t say the “C” word, but that was the huge thought bubble in everyone’s head.  I poked mine with a pen and burst it, putting off…

December 1st

I am determined to cherish each day of one of my favourite months … December.  While I don’t scrapbook much any longer, I want to use Ali Edward’s class to help me refocus on living each day as it comes. December Daily Last year at this time, I was frantically busy raising thousands and thousands…

Time After Time

It was 1995.  I resigned from a very lucrative position at a very secure company on February 6th, which coincidentally was the day I was christened back in 1966.  Later that day, my father told me he was diagnosed with stomach cancer.  I remember receiving the news.  My head swam, my knees buckled beneath me…

Sunday Daydreams

Today was a perfect day to luxuriate in bed, my head in the clouds. I partied too hardy late Friday and into the wee hours of Saturday with dozens and dozens of my favourite people to celebrate at my Goodbye Cancer! party.  The live band Juggernaut was on fire and the crowd was appreciative.  We…

Venus, Mars or the Storm on Jupiter?

Caution!  This blog post contains photos of my breast burned by radiation. Radiation from the Sun.  Radiation Oncology.  Radiation burns. I have almost completed 20 rounds of radiation to my right breast … the final steps in my Triple Negative Breast Cancer treatment plan.  The first 16 rounds of dose dense radiation were beamed into…