(Ir)+rational fears

I have this reoccurring nightmare that my PICC line will bleed out.  The nurses tell me that it can’t happen because there is a valve that prevents the backflow of blood … but what if the line is severed?  As in a car accident?  May as well slice my neck. The nightmare has me slowly…

My Estate of Mind

I can picture that photo being at my funeral.  It’s so full of life and love.  And pure joy.  I did achieve pure joy on this planet. The sky is so blue … the sun is so golden … And I love that moment with Carly, my chocolate lab mix. Today is Day 2 of…

Cranky as Fvck

About a year after I left my ex, I started a 12-week program for abused women.  There were weeks when I sat in that room – looking at those other fourteen women – and thought to myself “I don’t belong here.” Some of the physical abuse stories were horrific.  I had only been physically hurt…